Does this happen to anyone else too?

2021.10.23 15:15 throwthewholemeaway- Does this happen to anyone else too?

I was raped in June this year, the most recent of multiple sexual assaults across the years. It was really traumatic, basically torture as he did BDSM things to me and was a sick sadist (not going into the details again, i think you can find a more detailed account of it in one of my older posts if you need context for this post).
I’m able to talk about what happened to me, in a very clinical way. I can detail what he did to me. How long it lasted. How I reacted at the time and the thoughts I had. The things he said. All of the pain and fear I felt. Exactly how I felt myself dissociate. I do it with clinical precision and very rarely do I cry when talking about this sequence of events.
But as soon as I start broaching the topic of how the assault has scarred me emotionally, I start crying for maybe 5 seconds and then it feels like my brain shuts down immediately like someone turned off the power in my head. I instantly go numb and stop crying. Does this happen to anyone else? Why does this happen? Is there something wrong with me?
It’s so frustrating because I want to find some release for all of the ick that has been left in me by what he did, but I can’t. I feel ashamed that I feel so strongly yet so little, that I can recite what happened with so little emotion. It makes me question if I’m even really affected by the rape, or if it wasn’t rape and I just unknowingly enjoyed what he did. I’m able to have sex and have even been hypersexual, sleeping with a ton of strangers and getting them to cause me more pain than my rapist did. I feel like I’ve been doing this to hurt myself and punish myself because I didn’t die during the rape, but what if I just… wasn’t raped and it was just too much for me but I enjoyed it? I don’t know. I feel like I’m just gaslighting myself at this point.
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2021.10.23 15:15 ModAnonMTG New edited cEDH Gameplay episode with Play to Win and Stacked EDH

Hey everyone! Got a new episode of MAMTG cEDH up today with returning guests Cam and Dylan from Play to Win along with Ken from Stacked EDH!
Match up is Thrasios x Krark v Yuriko vs Jeska x Ishai v Krark x Sakashima
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